the drama of family

i don't even know where to start.

those of you who have been acquainted with my extended family know what i'm talking about when i say that they are absolutely crazy. there's so much drama and fighting, you'd think we were from the back woods of some redneck town. but no, just the backwoods of lake county. this is why lake county has such a bad rap.

this all started a couple months ago...somehow a fight got started between my cousins... about rent, about bad parenting, about drinking and drugs... just a lifetime of fighting between sisters blew up. i don't know all the details, i wasn't there... but somehow the whole family is now involved. and the only ones that are truly hurt are the ones that are being deprived. baby jaedyn will never know her aunt sarah. maddie will never know her cousin. i will never know my goddaughter. all because ashley has this thought in her head that we all hate her. that we didn't help her enough, didn't lover her enough, didn't support her enough. i don't know where she's getting these misguided notions... who she's talking to... but she's taken it upon herself to throw stones and burn bridges.... via myspace. she blogs about sarah, about her family.

you see, she doesn't live her anymore. she lives in arizona, where she fled to, to be with her mother. she left on the eve of the most important thing this family will ever do. my grandmother passed away last december. my grandfather in 2002. they were the glue that held my family together. we slowly started to fall apart after papa died... and then meme got cancer. and when she died... nothing was the same. so we decided, THE ENTIRE FAMILY, would go down to ft meyers, where they used to go fishing every september, on this past mothers day, and spred their ashes. we'd planned this trip for a year. everyone had cleared their calendars, everyone knew about it, we were al looking forward to being together, and doing this last thing that they asked of us.

about a week before mothers day, my mom calls and says ashley is moving to arizona. on the saturday before mothers day. all of us were shocked, hurt. that she wasn't going to make the trip to do this for her grandparents, by her own selfish choice. and not only that, but she was taking baby jaedyn... who granted, never knew her grandparents...but that's not the point.

i know sarah isn't perfect, she knows she isn't perfect. she knows, and has apologized to ashley about what happened. she understands that she has a part in this, that some of it is her fault. the problem with ashley is that she doesn't understand that, thinks that she did nothing wrong, and puts the blame on everyone but herself. she's throwing stones and everyone she can think of, everyone that's ever cared about her and the baby, and is buring her bridges. because one day she's going to need help. she's going to want that baby to know her family.

that's my rant. and my crazy, drama filled family.